{Roots & Wings}

Having a mom as great as mine has left me with some pretty big shoes to fill. . .

My mom really hasn't had the easiest or most simple life. . . She married my dad (Roger), they owned a furniture refinishing shop and a used furniture store. Both of them had to work so hard, AND we were so poor!

My dad, God love him, he just had problems. . .
manic depressant, bi-polar, had several nervous breakdowns, a chain-smoker. . . it's not that he wasn't a good man, because he was, but I know it would've been alot easier to leave than stay. Mom was faithful, 18 years faithful, and then. . . he passed at 42 with a massive heart attack. I can't imagine the loneliness my mom must have felt. . .Broke, 3 kids, and no parents to love and support her because. .
Her mom died in a horrible car accident the day my oldest sister was born.
and
Her dad died really young of a heart attack also, after a trip to the dentist.
Mom was strong.
Mom was Godly. . . did I mention Mom took all three of us girls to church for years. . . without my dad. Knowing what I know now, not-one-day was it ever about my mom. It wasn't about her at all. Hair. Nails. Clothes. Cars. No. . .it was about us. Providing for us. Survival. We didn't ever have the latest or greatest, but we didn't know the difference. We always had what we needed.

I am trying to be 1/2 the mom she is.

I don't have all the answers,

and sometimes I really question myself.

I don't believe there is a single thing this world has to offer

that brings more joy and happiness than Motherhood.

My life is much different from my moms, and I am thankful in many ways. . .

but not all ways. . .

I wonder if my kids will have roots? The same kind-of roots? The kind where life isn't always perfect and rosy. . .but hard and complicated too. I want them to be prepared. Armed and Able to survive the unfortunate events they are sure to endure in this old sinful world.

Do I protect them to much?

Do I give to much?

Do I and Do I or Don't I or Should I???

God Please Help Me. . . .

My roots have given me courage & strength.

My roots have given me knowledge & boundaries.

My roots have given me work ethic, strong convictions, and morals.

My roots have taught me to trust & obey God.

Its My Mother Whom Paved the Way For Me Now.

I am the mother I am, because of the mother she was.

I have roots.

I have wings.

I am putting all my hope and faith in Christ that

my children will too.

Happy Mothers Day.

I love you Mom.