Saturday, April 16, 2011

{What if your healing comes through tears. . .}

Kelly couldn't have been more right when she said, "you might need to hear this song". I do.  This has been a rough few weeks. . .  I have cried and cried. . . and have such a sea full of emotion.  In the midst of the storm, I failed miserably.  Something simple. Big Mistake.  I confessed, but continue to beat myself up.  It reminded me how eyes are on me, watching, waiting. . .I have fixed my eyes back on My Heavenly Father. . ..(tears) . . .why I took them off for that split second. . . I don't know.
Oh how sorry I am.  What a reminder for me though. . . always do the right thing. . . even if it hurts!! Didnt I say that. . .once. . .or twice???

I am going to pick myself back up & shake the dust off.

I have some friends that are hurting. Will you pray for them? 

I don't understand why things happen the way they do, but I do understand its not my place to know or understand anything. My God sees.  Sees everything. And he is in control.  He is bigger than any problem or circumstance.

"Oh Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. . . You know everything I am going to say before I even say it. . . Lord, such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to know! Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts.  Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life." Psalm 139

Lord help me. . .


SheWolf said...
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SheWolf said...

Ok, try this again...
Tonia, I know your heart and know that you are one of the most compassionate people I know. Like you said, "Shake the dust off!" You are human, as we all are....
Words can't express how much I appreciate you over the last few weeks. You have been such a blessing to me and my family and I thank you so much for it! Thanks for the phone calls, texts, and just the shoulder. Means so much.